Ive had my hair cut into a short bob, graduated in at the neck and dyed purple Not bright purple but a purply black. My eldest son keeps telling me I'm becoming more and more emo - just gotta grow my fringe over one eye nowD

Ive also found another pair of brand new jeans out of the wardrobe that I've never been able to get past my knees before - and they fit!!!! I suppose all the years of buying things and never trying them on are coming in useful now, because I haven't had to go out and buy a whole new wardrobe yet

The sun is shining, it's my day off and I'm feeling very very happy today.

Still got another 3 litres of water to drink though!!!

Well I've scrutinised my progress photos and I can't see any difference

My clothes are bigger and people keep asking if Ive lost weight, but now Ive got the proof in front of me I just can't see it. I mean I know Im not going to look like a model yet (ever!!!), but I just thought there would be a difference.

Anyway I'm not going to let it get me down. Perhaps in another month the difference will be greater.

I'm still debating when to put the photos on here as they are truly horrible. I'm not very photogenic anyway, but I wanted to wear something that would enable me to see my body changing rather than my usual baggy clothes and all I can see is fat!!!! I remember now why I dont wear sleeveless tops.

Hope everyone is having a good Bank Holiday. My husband and youngest son have gone to watch cars smashing into other cars at some destruction derby. Not quite my cup of tea, so I'm here at home ironing

Have a good day.

Ive been watching an episode of the Tyra Banks show this morning where she dresses in a "fat suit" as a 350lb woman (about my size when I started this diet).
She was really upset by the way people laughed at her, men ignored her and she felt invisible and no-one would make eye contact.
Well I have to say I've never felt this way. In fact people seem to go out of their way to talk to me - at the bus-stop, in shops etc. I have no shortage of men flirting with me and I never feel that anyone is staring at me. It makes me wonder whether people do and I'm just totally oblivious to it???????
I can only remember once when Ive been shouted at in the street and that was by two little boys who thought it would be funny to tell me to lose weight, but in nearly 36 years I suppose thats not too bad.

I know that I give the appearance that I'm a very confident person, but my weight does stop me doing a lot of things I would like to do. That's the reason I'm losing weight. Not for anyone around me who thinks that I don't look "ideal". I have a gorgeous husband who met me at 10 and a half stone, I dieted down to 9stone and all the sizes in between He still loves me whatever. I have two wonderful sons and lots of friends who love me. So I am doing this for me
It does make me wonder though whether I will notice people treating me differently when I've lost weight.
Perhaps I am thick skinnedD D D but it's better than being paranoid and locking myself away forever

My husband is taking my photo today. He took some at the beginning of this diet and I'm planning on having them taken at the end of every month. I've lost nearly 2 stone this month so I'm hoping I can see a difference (fingers crossed).

Hoorah - another 4lbs off D

:DI'm trying to think of some goals to keep me going, so here's a few I've thought of, although I'm sure there will be many more.

1. To get under 20 stone - I want to be in the teens instead of twentiesD

This is my first realistic goal. Others to come in time will be.

2. Buy clothes from anywhere (not just Evans!!!)

3. Go into a restaurant and not worry whether I will fit into the chair

4. Holiday abroad

5. To wear a sleeveless top

hmmm more to come as I think of themD

Went with the children and my husband to see The Da Vinci Code today.

They had Popcorn, coke, cracks, sweets and chocolate and I had........... a bottle of water.

Fortunately my children don't eat sweets and chocolate very often, so I don't usually have that temptation.

Still, its a small price to pay for losing the amount I have in 3 weeksD

I have taken to sniffing food now though . I feel that if I sniff hard enough I might be able to taste it lol.

Yep I think I'm going mad

Yes I'm happy it was a 7lb loss this week

It's definitely worth it.

Wow Day 20 - nearly 3 weeks, and I was wondering whether I would be able to last 3 days

I had my first dream about food last night lol. I dreamt that I pinched some toast off my mums plate and ate it without thinking. Then all I did was worry about the carbs being in my body and going out of ketosis. Obviously this is a reminder what would happen if I did this in real lifeD

I'm also amazed at how this diet seems to make you shrink so quickly. I tried on all the tops in my wardrobe (some brand new) that have either never fit me or not fit me for a long time and ALL of them fit.

So 20 days in and I'm still drinking litres and litres of water (at least 4 per day) and not a morsel of real food has touched my lips

Hoping for a good weigh in this week (fingers and toes crossed)

I'm amazed how much this diet makes you think about the food you used to eat. I've never had these sort of insights on all the hundreds of diets I've been on in the past.

I can't beleive how many times since starting this that I've thought "Oh I'll just get a bag of crisps etc", not because I'm hungry but because it's a habit. It's only because I know that I can't have them now that I don't. Before I would have had them and "counted" them in whatever diet I was on at that moment.

I always convinced myself that I didn't eat a lot, so yesterday I sat and thought about what I would have eaten in that day, and here it is.

Breakfast:- Cappucino, 2 slices of white bread with margarine

Snack:- Cappucino and biscuits at work

Lunch:- 3 slices of white bread, margarine and ham etc.

Snack:- Packet of crisps and a cake of some sort

Dinner:- Gammon, Bacon, sausages, fried egg, fried bread, potatoe croquettes, onion rings, fried mushrooms.

Snack:- Hot chocolate, crisps

Who was I kidding???

1. My skin is perfect. Really smooth and clear with no spots

2. Clothes that didnt fit me when I was lighter than this fit me already.

3. People can tell I've lost weight already, when usually I have to lose at least 3 stone.

4. The "fat" areas around my stomach and the tops of my legs used to be hard. Now the fat feels soft and squidgy I like to imagine that this is because the fat is breaking down and melting away

5. I have loads of energy.

6. I just feel "different" and more confident.

I'm sure there's more but I can't think of any for the moment. But just those 6 things have made the whole thing worthwhile.

I can't wait to see the things I notice in a couple of months timeD

I've still not cheated once I never knew I had such willpower lol.

I'm trying not to let this get me down but tonight I weighed 23 stone 5lbs which is a 2lb loss. My CDC did point out to me that she has new scales and we didnt actually know my starting weight, but it is a bit disappointing when everyone is asking how much you've lost.

On the plus side I have lost another 8inches

I also know that I would never lose so much in 2 weeks on any other diet, I just think I was spoilt by such a large loss last week.

Anyway I shall keep on this week, I've managed two whole weeks with not a crumb of food passing my lips so I know I can do it. My husband and my Mum were worried I was going to give up. Not a chance - I shall definitely do this

Oh my goodness. I watched 10 years younger bikini special last night. The lady on there had lost 11 stone (Ithink) and was left with loads of sagging skin.
A friend of mine lost 9stone a couple of years ago and she's had a tummy tuck, a boob lift and her arms done. She has been in severe pain and her scars are really terrible (and they're still really red looking now), so I'm dreading having to go through that.
I'm sure that with over 12 stone to lose I will definitely have some saggy skin, but I'm using loads of cream and hoping to get exercising soon in the hopes that I won't have to go through surgery

I don't mind a bit of sagginess, but I dont want my belly hanging on my knees

At least I will be fit and healthy (hopefully)

Well after yesterdays sulk everything is fine and rosy again lol.

The only trouble Ive had today is actually having my food packs. I haven't felt even a tiny bit hungry and could easily have got through the day without having one. I have forced them down though, as obviously I need the vitamins and calories to keep me going.

Had a little teeny go on my Gazelle Elite which came the other day. Although I'm not supposed to exercise yet I just wanted to try it out

Another week nearly over and no food has passed my lips at all !!!!

I am SICK of this diet
Had a bit of a sulk tonight. I'm sick of cooking for everyone else and not being able to eat it! So tonight I cooked everyones dinner and went off to bed to sulk for a while
Felt much better after that so I had my chicken and mushroom soup with loads of black pepper and made a chocolate pack into a muffin. So I'm ok again now - just needed a little sulk!!
I know deep down that I've got to carry on with this, but I feel like it's going to be sooooooo long before I can eat normally again. But theres the problem. I'm still thinking about all the things I can eat when I've finished. BUT I realise that if I carry on as before I will just put all the weight back on. Therefore I need to continue with this and sort my head out whilst not eating.
Just a little blip. Everyone keeps telling me it will all be worth it in the end. It had better beD

Water 4 litres

Having a new computer system installed at work today, and as everything is on the computer didn't have much to do. Bored! Bored! Bored! I've even cleaned off the Doctors Desk (and thats no easy feat beleive me!!).
At least I managed to drink lots of water instead of being too busy to think about it.

Ive just cooked a lovely roast beef dinner for everyone and I've had a flipping chicken and mushroom soup. Somehow it's not quite the same!!
Still, have to think about the end result. I've really got to do this, this time and all my family are being so encouraging how could I let them down? So it's on with drinking water and dreaming of being "normal"

Still got another food pack left to have. You know what? I think I might just have a chocolate mousse for a changeD

I really can't beleive I'm on day 9 already.

Been shopping, bought some lip gloss and body butter. Hopefully I will soon be out shopping for some new clothes - my jeans were dropping off today

My son and husband had a pizza tonight and I really really really wanted some
Made do with a sniff of it.

I'm hoping I go to bed and dream of food tonight:D (preferably Mexican Hot pizza).

Had another mousse today (not bored with them yet)

Water 4 litres

Another day gone by.

Didnt have much time for temptation - have been nursing my mum who fell down the stairs. Stayed with her til my Dad came home at 10pm.

Couldnt wait to get back to have my soup and a choccie mousse. Think I am addicted to the Cambridge Mix a Mousse. lol

Water 5 litres

Tea 3 mugs

Worried all day at work about going for weigh in tonight. Even though my clothes are bigger on me I was convincing myself I had lost nothing.

Unfortunately the new scales hadn’t come so not really a proper reading. The scales go up to 23stone 5 – it said 23stone 4 and then cut off. As we guessed at around 25 stone last week we think I’ve lost about a stone and a bit. My inch losses were very good – 3.5” off waist, 7” off left leg, 3” under bust, 3” off bust, 1” off left arm, 3” off hips.

So even though I’m not sure about the actual loss I’m very very happy. Hopefully the scales will weight me next week and I will be able to keep an accurate record from then on.

Tonight I bought some Mix a Mousse and Summer Berry Water flavouring. Made a chocolate mousse, which was lovely and very filling. The water flavouring makes a change but I felt a bit like I was drinking flat fizzy pop. Will try it in sparkling water tomorrow instead.

Well it wasn't too bad at work today. Of course everyone is fascinated by the diet, but also telling me "ooh it can't be good for you" etc etc. But whatever they say I feel really good on the diet. I'm not saying I don't fancy eating something, but I'm not going to
I nearly ate a few things at work today. I can't beleive how absent-mindedly I "used" to eat (and I wonder how I got this big!!)
Found it hard cooking dinner tonight. Made a lovely beef stir fry and a little voice in my head kept telling me that a little taste of beef wouldn't hurt, after all its protein and it wouldn't knock me out of ketosis. BUT I don't want to start on that slippery slope, because then it would just be a taste of this and a taste of that.
Water:- 4.5 litres
Things I nearly ate:- beef , marshmallow, chewing gum, choccie biscuit, chocolates (but of course being an angel I resisted all!!!)

Woke up with a "slimy tongue" - lovely!!
I think Day 4 has been my worst day. We go to my mums every Tuesday for dinner (she is a wonderful cook!!) and I reallly really wanted to eat something
I didn't, of course. I was a good girl and had my Fruits of the Forest shake, much to my 70 year old Auntys horror. She wanted to know why I couldnt just have a bit of porridge or something lol.
I'm well into ketosis today, my ketostik is a lovely rosy pink, but strangely my stomach was really grumbling tonight. Imaginary hunger?? Anyway drank more water and tried not to think about it.
Hoorah managed to get through Day 4 - that's 4 whole days with no food

Hmm I feel a bit upset today. Since I've told people that I'm doing this diet two people have said to me "I'll have to watch it, you'll be lighter than me soon". What's that supposed to mean?? I feel as if I'm some fat gauge - if you're lighter than me then you must be ok
Anyway obviously I will soon be lighter than them Comments like that just make me more determined.
On the plus side, I'm in ketosis and I got through another day.
Although I really could just drink a glass of Baileys now lol.