Here I Go Again

I haven't done one of these yet. Don't know how old it is or who I borrowed it from (sorry)

1. Your name spelled backwards: haraS

2. Where were your parents born? West Midlands

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? Music

4. Have you ever been in a school play? Yes

5. Type of music you dislike most? Dance/Techno (or bonking music, as my mother calls it )

6. Are you registered to vote? Yep

7. Do you have a car? No.

8. Have you ever ridden on a moped? Yes

9. Ever prank call anybody? No.

10. Ever got a parking ticket? Don't drive

11. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? Never in a million years

12. Furthest place you ever travelled? Holland

13. Do you have a garden? Yes

14. What’s the size of your bed? Double

15. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? No

16. Bath or Shower, morning or night? Bath - night

17. Best movie you’ve seen in the past 4 months? I've watched Reeker, Half Light, The Omen, X-Men and Superman in the last couple of weeks, but I wouldnt watch any of them again.

18. What’s the next movie you want to see? The Lake House

19. Have you ever broken any hearts? Yes

20. Are you a good cook? Yes

21. Orange or Apple juice? Orange

22. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with & where did you go to? Friends and family to a Chinese Buffet.

23. Favorite type of drink? Coffee

24. Best thing in the world? My family

25. Have you ever broken a bone? No

26. Have you ever won a trophy? Yes (well the cats have)

27. What is your favourite board game? Scrabble

28. What is your dream car? I don't know.

29. Ever order an article from an infomercial? No

30. Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi Max

31. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? No

32. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy? Paracetamol

33. Who would you like to meet? erm ooh I don't know.

34. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes

35. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Too many to count.

36. Last song stuck in your head? Dani California - RHCP

37. Any pets? Yes - 8 cats

38. What is one thing you would like to learn to do? Be patient

39. What do you do when you are bored? Read

40. Bacon sandwiches – should they have bread or toast? White bread and ketchup.

I have an obsessive compulsive disorder and it drives me mad. It started when I was about 9 and I became obssessed with germs being on everything. I wouldnt touch a door handle or pick up a telephone. I washed all of the skin off my hands until they were raw and bleeding.

I thought I had grown out of it, but sometimes I realise it's still there.

I can't go to bed without shutting all the drawers in the bedroom. I can't have anything hanging out of the door of the wardrobe. The curtains have to be fully closed with no gaps at all. I sometimes have to read paragraphs of books over and over again. I wash the taps in the bathroom when I've used them. I've sent my Dad to my house numerous times convinced I've left the iron or my straighteners on. When I cook chicken (not a whole one I couldnt cope with that!!) all of the surface in the kitchen have to be bleached and washed, just in case someone gets salmonella. My ornaments have to be in exactly the same place and at the right angle.

Could you live with me??

And to the outside world I seem quite normal

p.s but you'll never get food poisoning at mine

I've now been on this diet for 80 days. That's 80 days with no real food whatsoever, not even a taste of something.

Yesterday I was very very tempted. Because it was so hot I didnt feel like cooking a Sunday roast. Number 2 son was out at a Chinese Restaurant and Number 1 son had his girlfriend over, so hubby decided to go and buy a roast chicken and some flavoured chicken legs from Asda. All I had to do then was a salad and some bits and pieces to go with it.

Sounds easy, but when I was cutting up the chicken (BBQ), I don't know how I stopped it from accidentally making its way into my mouth. I was standing in the kitchen thinking "they'll never know. I could just have a little taste and no-one would ever know".

However, I didn't have a taste, because I know that if I have one little taste and get away with it, it's going to lead to another little taste of something else and so on.

That's the reason I put on so much weight. I had no control over food at all - it controlled me.

I now feel I'm getting some control , and that makes me happier than a taste of any food.