Yes I know it's a bit early to be thinking about it, but it will be here before we know it
The reason for this post is that as long as I can remember I have never met anyone my husband works with. I totally avoid all social situations. He's not ashamed of me, I'm ashamed of myself. I can't stand the thought that they will be talking about him and feeling sorry for him and wondering what he's doing with me 
The place he works at now organises a lot of all expenses paid trips etc for the staff and as my husband is a Manager he feels that he has to go. I never go to any of these and it makes me feel really guilty sending him on his own (I'm sure they must think he's not really married!!!).
The problem I have now is that there is going to be a Christmas Party
(twenties theme with gangsters, flappers etc) and he wants me to go. If I stay on track I should have hopefully lost around another 5 stone by then, but what if I haven't??? I'm terrified to book it because it won't be the first time I've backed out of something at the last minute because I feel so crap about myself.
Hmmmm I don't know what to do. I'm feeling guilty again :: ::
I honestly don't know why he bothers
2006-07-28 @ 15:07