Computer at home knackered, so can only blog when I get chance at work.

Don't forget me *sniff* *sniff*

Made everyone roast chicken yesterday and weighed myself 3 ounces out. I can't believe how much 3 oz is. Weighed and checked 3 times before I believed it!!

I put it on a plate with a slice of cucumber and some lettuce, but there seemed too much (yes I know it sounds daft and I never thought I'd hear those words come out of my mouth either!!), so I ate half and saved the other half til tea time.

I chopped the chicken into small pieces and put it in with my mushroom soup and some curry powder. I have to say it was absolutely lovely (but then again I'm sure any food would taste lovely to me!!)

Hmmm think I'm having prawns tonight

I find that the tiny bit of food I'm allowed is very very filling. I think that there is no way on earth I'm going to be able to eat a Christmas Meal. Especially my Mum's which are on huge steak plates (and I wonder how I got so big). Think I shall have to have it on a tiny childs plate

Wow that sounds like another person talking, not me

Oh the joys of food.

Husband picked me up from work yesterday and had bought me Bat Out of Hell III, Bat Out of Hell (on CD because we've only got it on an ancient tape) and the new Evanescence CD (can't remember the name). So we spent a lazy afternoon watching the DVD and listening to the new CD before going to be weighed.

I lost another 4lbs this weekD, which I'm quite happy with, but my Counsellor has asked me to do "Add a Meal", as I haven't lost many inches this week. Calling it "Add a Meal" is a joke, because a couple of ounces of white meat and 2 tbsp of green veg hardly adds up to a meal, but I shall be eating this week!!

I've got today and tomorrow off work, so I went shopping with my Mum (of course, what else would you do on your day off).

Two amazing things happened (well they were amazing to me lol). First of all Mum bought me a skirt. I tried on a size 18 and it fit with room to spare, so Mum bought me a 16 thinking it would fit for Christmas. Got home and decided to try it on anyway, and guess what?? IT FIT!!! Cinderella can go to the ballDD

The other thing I tried on, which I don't think I've ever owned in my life, were knee high boots (to go with the skirt). They also fit my calves (nearly danced in amazement). I didn't buy any today, but am hoping to get some for Christmas

Oh and I bought 5 beautiful bras (due to the rapid shrinkage of my boobies I desperately needed some). I was a bit worried that some were a bit frilly, but my Mum convinced me that I can do with a bit of frill now So I have £70.00's worth from TK Maxx for £20.00!!!!

I never would have thought this time last year that I would be buying sexy frilly bras and trying on knee high boots.

Yes today was a very good day

Sorry I'm late updating my weight. Have been busy busy busy. Off to the NEC in a mo.

I lost 4lb this week so *drum roll please* I''m in the 15's for the first time in 15 years.

You might notice from my tracker that I've managed to lose an extra 14lbs (amazing huh??)

Well no not really. I have a little fancy chart that works out your weight BMI, how much you've lost etc. The only problem is I can't add up and keyed in my weight wrong in the first place (that's what happens when I get confused converting stones to pounds) . I always though my counsellor couldn't add up and never questioned why she was always a stone ahead.

Oh well at least it's in the right direction and I haven't lost less than I thought.

All the number blur into one now anyway I just know I've lost a LOT

Sorry I'm late updating my weight. Have been busy busy busy. Off to the NEC in a mo.

I lost 4lb this week so *drum roll please* I''m in the 15's for the first time in 15 years.

You might notice from my tracker that I've managed to lose an extra 14lbs (amazing huh??)

Well no not really. I have a little fancy chart that works out your weight BMI, how much you've lost etc. The only problem is I can't add up and keyed in my weight wrong in the first place (that's what happens when I get confused converting stones to pounds) . I always though my counsellor couldn't add up and never questioned why she was always a stone ahead.

Oh well at least it's in the right direction and I haven't lost less than I thought.

All the number blur into one now anyway I just know I've lost a LOT

Thanks everyone.

Looks like we have quite a majority vote.

I've printed out both for my counsellor to have a look at. My son agrees with you all.

Number two son took the photos for me btw.

Right, stories written. Before and after photos are printed. Tomorrow they will go off.

Thank you

My friend is always getting words mixed up and using words she doesn't know the meaning of.

This is our conversation yesterday.

C - the flight to Dublin was really rough. Wish I'd got some Rosemary Beads.

Me - some what beads??

C - Rosemary Beads

Me - what makes you think they're called Rosemary beads??

C - they're named after the woman who invented them aren't they?

Me - sniggering - I think you'll find they're called Rosary Beads!!!!

and that's only one example. Aww I love herD

Well I've finally written my "Slimmer of the Year" story.

Amazingly I found it unbelievably easy to write. I thought I would sit there for hours with my pen in my hand, but the words just seemed to flow from my pen. In fact I could have written way more, but I've had to condense it.

Just got to keep my fingers crossed now. I'm still feeling that because I'm not at target I haven't got a chance, but everyone says I should try anyway. 

So I'm being confident now, but will you all just keep your fingers crossed for me. I need all the help I can get

I'm ill   My head feels like this   (well like someones doing that to it). I have a cough and can hardly speak.

Sympathy would be most appreciated

well for me it is.

As I was saying earlier to Adamantixx I have way too many books.

Lucky for me someone on a forum I'm a member of posted a link to this site

http://www.readitswapit.co.uk/

perfect - my idea of heaven

That's it! I'm devastated. Justin Hawkins is leaving The Darkness.

Now, I've been thinking and I know what will make me feel better. Could you all send a photo to me, of yourselves in a tight jumpsuit.

Thanks

Lost another 5lbs this week - very happy with thatDDD

p.s I've had my arm twisted into entering slimmer of the year eeeeek

My husband told me yesterday that he would hate to live with someone "normal", because it would be boring.

What's that supposed to mean ???

He loves me really

Another weigh in later. 24 weeks with no food - surely I should get some sort of medal or something

aaargh my weight ticker has disappeared and so has the Cambridge Site it came from.

Anyone know where I can get another one???

Reading blogs, when I should be working.

Oh the joy of having handed in your noticeD

Good and Bad things about losing weight

Good
1. I don't feel like people stare at me all the time
2. I can fit into seats with arms on
3. Clothes
4. I don't make a dam in the bath when I let the plug out
5. I can cross my legs
6. No back ache
7. Confidence
8. No more giant knickers
9. The seatbelt in my friends tiny sports car fits me and I don't fear for my life every time I get in it.
10. Lovely smooth spot-free skin.

Bad

1. I'm too small for our big (cast iron) bath. I could wedge myself in but now I slide up and down
2. My rings don't fit
3. My watch spins round
4 The cost of replacing clothes (from 30/32 to 18/20)

Looks like the good is outweighing the bad

I've just written out my notice

I love my job, but I can't stand the people I work for. My job is so stressful I'm crying every day and coming home and taking it out on the people I love!!!

My husband has convinced me to hand in my notice today, so I've just sat here and written it out. Even though I can't stand being there it still makes me feel sad (I just don't know what I want!!)

I've given them until December to find someone for me to train. Hopefully this will be enough time. I had 2 new people start last week, but they both left on Friday because they couldn't stand the way they were treated and spoken to :: :: I have tried explaining to them that that is the reason they can't keep staff, but they won't listen. Unfortunately they can't see anything wrong in calling people stupid etc and treating them like slaves. One of them called the last girl that worked for us a "little bastard"!!!! because she used the phone for a personal mobile call.

Anyhow, I was thinking of becoming a Cambridge Diet Counsellor when I've finished on this mad diet (hopefully soon), so this will give me a kick in the right direction

Hope you all have a better day than I'm sure I will

a lovely Sunday roast and it smells gorgeous.

Some days I wish I could eat

BEFORE

-111lbs later

Another 4lbs gone this week D

Hi everyone. I don't seem to be writing much in this "weight loss blog" lately and I though I should explain my reasons why.

Now, before I start I just want to say that losing this weight has been one of the best things I've ever done and I don't regret doing it for a minute

My problem now is that I don't know how I feel. Yes I know it's mad!! Everyone keeps telling me how well I've done and how good I look. But I just can't beleive them. I look in the mirror and still see the same face and body. At the moment I don't feel any different. Yes I know my clothes are smaller etc, but my head is honestly messed up I pick up clothes that look tiny (to me) and when I put them on they fit!!!

I think really I'm upset with myself for letting myself get to that state in the first place. I've lost loads of weight, and as I wrote in one of the forums earlier I'm still obese - I still look like a "before" photo.

I'm hoping that these feelings will pass, and I've been assured that they will, but just wanted to let you all in on my thoughts at the moment.

Hey, isn't that what this blogs for??DD

Anyhow another weigh in later today

Conversation between number one son and me.

Him:- Why don't you ever go to the pub?

Me:- Because I can only drink water and your Dad doesn't drink. We would look a right sad pair with water and orange juice.

Him:- Why don't you stop the diet then?

Me:- I've still got loads to lose.

Him:- No you haven't, you're not overweight any more.

Me:- I bloody am

Him:- What? medically overweight. Just look at you, you're not!!

Me:- Awww that's the nicest thing anyones said to me all day.

Awww bless him. I am definitely still overweight, but this is the lightest he can remember (in 15 years). Still must get his eyesight checked though

p.s yes I know you can enjoy yourself without a drink, and believe me I can. But I LIKE drinking dammit

Well I've got my new little furry baby home. She's a husky rat and she's called Flower

I was getting a bit worried because she hadn't eaten since Saturday, so last night I gave her some carrot and cucumber and she couldn't eat them quick enough. That must have started her tastebuds going, and now she's eating the rat food.

Even the flipping rats eating more than me