Archive - Here I Go Again

I always order my Tesco shopping for a Wednesday morning (my day off work).

The delivery driver put the baskets on my doorstep and said "that's it today. You've been very restrained". A few months ago this would have sent me into "paranoid mode". I would have been thinking, "what does he mean, restrained?? Does he think all the food is for me" etc etc. I really was that paranoid.

Today, however I realise that he is right. I have been restrained. As I've mentioned before my shopping bill is reduced by around £30 a week. The reason for this, although I pushed it to the back of my mind and didn't admit to it before,is that Wednesday was my "binge day". I would order double choc muffins, finest chocolate chip cookies, crisps and dips, crusty bread and a tub of double cream - for ME!!!! Well there was no-one here was there, so I would start with a couple of cookies. For lunch I would have some of the crusty bread with lots of butter, the crisps and dip and finish off with a muffin. The muffin had to be put in a dish and then the cream poured all over it, which then had to be mashed up so that the cream soaked in :: ::

For years I fooled people into thinking I hardly ate anything, and I think I actually beleived it myself. I obviously thought that if no-one saw me eating it, it was calorie free

Denial, denial, denial.

Only now can I admit that my diet was terrible and I'm sure I must have been either heading for a heart attack or diabetes (I have a history of both in my family). Before I started this diet I was concerned about my heart, I was getting palpitations and was constantly checking my pulse.

I'm still amazed at the things this diet is revealing to me. I'm not saying it's all due to the Cambridge Diet, it might have happened on WW or Slimming World or Atkins or any of the numerous diets I've been on in the past. But Cambridge is the only one that got me this far.

I'm so glad I decided to give losing weight one last go. :DD