Got weighed in last night and was disappointed to find that I'd only lost 4lbs in the past 2 weeks (so was my counsellor!), but when she checked my BMI it was cause for a celebration. I'm only overweight now, not obese, not morbidly obese or super morbidly obese, just plain old ordinary overweight. Now I am just another normal overweight person like all the other millions in Britain 
This also means that I can finally book on my Cambridge Counsellors course 
I also think that my mind is finally catching up with my body (look out for contradictions in the following paragraphs 
). I'm still shocked sometimes when I catch sight of myself in a shop window, etc to see how normal I look and sometimes I don't even recognise that its me for a few seconds.
I sit in my chair at home and I feel tiny. There seems to be loads of space around me, whereas before I totally filled it and didnt really fit at all. I sit in my chair now and make myself as tiny as possible. I seem to be able to fold myself in . I can wrap my arms round my body and bring my legs up to my chest and I feel that I could fold myself in so tiny I could disappear 
This feeling of being small also worries me though (of course it does I'm not happy unless I'm worrying over something!). When I was at my biggest, even though I knew in my head I was big I didn't really think I was as big as I was. When I saw photos I thought they had just been taken at an unflattering angle and that's not how I really looked. The person looking back at me in the mirror looked nowhere near as massive as I looked in photos and videos.
So now you will understand that when I look at myself now and think that I'm "normal" or even dare to think that I'm "small". I worry that I'm still kidding myself.
I bought a skirt on Wednesday - size 12 and it's still a bit big round my waist. The top I bought was size 14/16 and was too big. Instead of accepting that I'm a size now that I wasn't when I was a teenager I'm convinced that clothes sizes have got bigger.
So as you can see even when my brain starts catching up with my eyes I'm still not happy to trust it just yet 
So I've only got another 10lbs to lose now (offficially anyway). I really would like to be under 12 stone next weeks, so I haven't had any chocolate bars and am going to drink a litre more water than I normally drink (every little helps).
I'm excited to see 11 stone something, because although I can remember all the weights I've been over years and years I can't ever remember seeing 11 something on the scales (I must have been at some point but can't have been dieting for once in my life).
Have a good weekend 
